boo.
Forgive me, I have been too busy dying I forgot I was someone else’s friend. I should have had the decency to consider that the reality of my own pain does not excuse me from being oblivious to other people’s feelings.
I halfheartedly left everything behind because I was not ready to take another look at what has become of my life. So I decided to keep myself preoccupied to keep my ego at a decent point. I have finally come to terms with the reality that I’m going nowhere with my one foot buried in the ground.
My platonic absence I can blame at the realization that I can’t possibly embrace empathy from someone who maintains a tie to the very person I had been crying for.
I will always be around but I need time to gather the scattered pieces in the puzzle that is my life. I thought that at some point or another, I would be able to fill the gaping space.
Weeks passed, however, and a better self is still an obscure image to picture.
So here I am, trying to figure out a puzzle with the remaining pieces that I have. Not to mention that I’ve yet to find a hundred more sprawled in the vast unknown.
So help me God.
[phiLo]
Its so deep that I’m havin a hard time to figure out what it really does want to say!
well, as I told you already you should try to see things in the brighter side! Life is a journey and it doesn’t end with this kind of trials! be strong, hold on and just always remember that all things are happening for a reason and it sure will make you a better person!
In my own perception of moving on I know it is really hard, people would always say that time heals and cures the pain but for me it is not true, you just get along with the pain through time and once you get used to it it won’t hurt you anymore!
I am also havin’ a hard time copin up with the problem of moving on! everytime i would remember the past, it is the memories that would re open the wounds and keeps you hurting inside!
at first it would hurt but a day would come that you won’t feel the hurting anymore… when? no one knows, just hold on and never lose hope!
Friends are the best people you can hang on to! and when situations like this would arise just remember you should also love your self!
keep safe and God Bless!
if that blog is also for me, well, don’t think about it…
that’s what friends are for naman di ba?!!
haha!!
“i will never let you fall
i’ll stand up with you forver
i’ll be there for you through it all…”
i know you’ll get through it…
i’ll be here just in case…
You are doing good, philo.. trying to move on. But don’t rush coz believe me it’s a bit long process.. Pick up all the treasures you’ll come across with as the process progresses.. You can use them for the next time that you’ll love again.
Just move on, but don’t forget..
boo…
On my own, but mostly the savannah,
Where the tumbleweeds fade away and die,
Before the glassy sun burns a summer of crystals,
The glistering waters of the high seas
Of which was so far a place as of where vultures roam.
I looked around but you weren’t anywhere…
You used to say that you would never die,
But I took the wrong meaning into my heart.
Now the sea is wild with despair,
Deep blue like a prairie of flowers blue,
Where all children of God rest in eternal peace.
I saw you at the end,
You and I, brother and sister of nature,
Brother and sister of heaven and earth,
Your usually calm and heavenly eyes full of tears,
Bitterly falling one after one into a river,
Then the river of life turned red in blood.
My eyes watched in horror.
Slowly and deadly your heart became poisoned,
You disappeared without saying good-bye,
Not a word came out of your mouth.
You became like desolation in its grave.
When once the skies were a realm of stars
And the sun shone brightly in summer skies,
You were there to share the calmness;
But now I stand here in midst of the tall grass
And only the savannah remains…
sagot ko yan…boo..