A single teardrop falls
into a vacuum of despair
the past overruns the future
onlysorrow ever cares.
I don’t know why I worry
Why I shed these tears of pain
all I know is the hurt
echoing forever through my heart.
The pain of rejection
of loneliness unmatched
not being good enough for you or me.
You can’t understand me
so don’t even bother to try
my thoughts and feelings are gone
My heart was locked away ages ago.
All the remains is a wondering
a fear of life and a lust for death.
Hatred grows inside me now
fed by a desire for vengeance
friends become enemies
allies objects of boundless rage.
If this shadow wasn’t here
If the darkness didn’t surround me
consume me and fuel me
Maybe I could be happy.
My dreams were shattered
Such a long time ago
I’m surprised I remember them still.
My hope was crushed
In so many different ways
Why does a fragment still remain?
To live a life without meaning
There could be no greater curse
To live a day as I do
Is nothing short of hell.
I don’t have what I need
Nor what I desire and want
Both yearnings go unanswered.
This is my story
and when destiny’s curse is over
My life shall be too.
i recommend that you read the works of angelo v. suarez. he’s superbly poetic, too. he won a palanca when he was 19 for his first book. his books are quite expensive though, so you can just take a look at his works through the net if you have time.
anyway, i’m your fan — in a rather romantic way. haha. but, i really am. seriously. since high school
ever heard of some xylirica leigh?